jordangibson:
“At least I got help.”
imathers replied to your post: imathers replied to your post: Hey this new Nexus…
1. this is perfect and beautiful 2. can you picture clint and logan having a beer together i think my heart just exploded
Oh god tho imagine all their 3am Man Tears. *wraps both in large blanket, hugs blanket*
imathers replied to your post: Hey this new Nexus 4 thing has a really big screen
re: asterisk: ME TOO
[this went on a bit- my * was *I am tragically committed to the idea of Clint winding himself up about Kate.]
IT’S JUST SO CLINT. He’s so… uh, ‘useless’ is too negative a word here and also innaccurate, as is ‘helpless’ but like. Incurably anxious? In this respect he is sort of like Wolverine,
And like, a bit like Wolverine is most uninhibitedly the savage, murderous Wolverine and also most uninhibitedly the broken, stolen-from-himself-by-his-other-self Logan when he’s in X-Force, Clint when he’s being International Crime Fighter Hawkeye with partner Hawkeye is sort of a distilled and freed form of Clint.
He’s an idiot and he’s hurting himself a great deal, in every sense but he’s also being the rogueish, disorganised, impulse-driven, hot-headed essential oil of Hawkeye (and this thing is also in Kate, of course, albeit in a different way) because they are people who, for whatever reason and because of their (totally different) backgrounds have learnt to live in a framework whereby the normal rules do not apply to them. And they like the bits where they find abnormal rules to adhere by, they really do- rules that suit them, like in Avengers teams but beneath it all there’s the Hawkeye-ness that takes a paleolithic weapon into battle (or hides it in a car just in case, at a wedding) and wears purple and does the right thing more than the good thing. And especially when the right thing’s a bad thing and a deeply wrong thing for them.
And Clint totally loves her but finds this deeply confusing because he finds, at the base of everything, absolutely everyone deeply confusing but especially Kate. Because he thinks she is really, really cool and she sort of thinks that he is really, really cool and normally this is the sort of thing that would lead to a brief dalliance with rumpo and him getting punched but Clint may finally have found a scenario where he’s too much of a stupid head to even do the stupid head thing, which is probably actually the smart way to do it but has become so backed up in his own Clint-ness that he’s had to find a labyrinthine, winding path through clouds of anxious stupid to get to it. And sometimes ends up back in the labyrinth, convincing himself not to do a thing he has no intention of doing and getting tangled in an enormous though process called How To Not Solve The Non-Problem That Isn’t Kate.
I don’t want them to be together but I really, really like them together. I think this is sort of also what they think? But I also really like the idea that they have a more-than-friends-but-not-quite-anything-else relationship, intimate and physical but non-sexual, so they can hug on the settee but it’s not, like, a hug that’s going somewhere. It’s just a private episode of Being Hawkeyes and Hawkeyes are, like, pretty fucked up people and sometimes they need to go and do that without other people who don’t necessarily share their particular brand of fuck up.
I dunno, that may not make any sense. I’ve been thinking about Uncanny X-Force a lot this weekend so it’s slightly permeating everything but just right at the end of vol. 1 I was thinking Logan seemed a lot like Clint, for a bit. The best there is at what they respectively do, it’s just that what they respectively do is frequently Fuck Themselves Up (Mostly Due To Already Being Considerably Fucked Up) While Fucking Other Things Up That They Were Just Trying To Un-Fuck In The First Place; Fuck.
(see also: all other Marvel heroes)
infovore replied to your post: Hey this new Nexus 4 thing has a really big screen
jesus and now you’ve got me reading hawkguy fic on the train to Bristol. mainly because it’s a nice little universe to curl up in when I’m barely awake. Especially when nobody ships *anything*.
It is super lovely- very much about the methods of coping with general ‘stuff-ness.’ Have you seen Fraction’s venture into fanfic’cing his own work?-
No fair, Fraction. *feels things*
Hey this new Nexus 4 thing has a really big screen
So here I am innocently reading some fic on the tube and the girl next to me leans over for a second to wriggle her oyster card out of her pocket, sees either the AO3 header or some of the actual text (of a sweet sort of gen Hawkguy fic*) and looks up at me with a proper over-the-top-of-glasses, ‘I fucken see u’ expression, winks broadly and gets off at Hammersmith.
*I am tragically committed to the idea of Clint winding himself up about Kate.
Hang on hang on- that other comment: “What kind of potato was this filmed with?”
WHAT KIND OF POTATO WAS THIS FILMED WITH?
Ugh why is there always so much dub-con or full on non-con in kink memes? I was reading through one for research porpoises and nearly all the fulfilled ones were really amazingly gory non-con.
I do try not to, like, judge people’s ~things~ wrt sexuality but like underage stuff and anything with a heavy gore (and I’m not talking bloodplay or heavy bdsm or even conventional torture, I mean like guts) element… I guess the thing that shocks me slightly is that in a kink meme I can’t rationalise it as an unpleasant work the author felt the need to write because sometimes to describe and explore a character fully you need to do that. And because some characters are deeply unpleasant and that’s a good thing in terms of fictional constructs but like… I guess (and like, copping to the fact it was the Marvel kink meme I was on because I guess I was vaguely thinking of mixing business with pleasure or at least wanted to know what the fuck was going on/being asked for) I know that characters like Daken exist and that he’s an interesting character and that he uses sex as a weapon in a lot of deeply disturbing ways and that his badness and violence is well documented and unremorseful but yer not supposed to go ‘mmmm, soooo hotttttt’ at it. Right? Right?
But like obviously this is me being judgemental and I’m really trying to avoid that but good grief, some of this stuff was extreme. Which I guess is what the kink meme and its anonymity is for but a surprising number of users were coming off anon and I need to like, get my head around this so I can think about it analytically not emotionally.
There was this one really effed up Bullseye/Daken one I may not be able to remove from my own brain for awhile. Gross, bub. Eurfhlfkg. Anyway, now I shall read Zooborns for an hour.
